August 21, 2013 6:02pm
Well I can’t stop thinking about you right now, and I miss you every day but I don’t know why I miss you so much today. You know all I can do is think about how much I love you, I’m so far into this I don’t think id remember how to get back or how to be without you. I’ve let myself surrender to you completely, vie given you my heart in every way a person can give it without ripping it from their chest and handing it to you lol. I feel like any way I try to explain how much I love you and how much you mean to me it doesn’t really get close enough to how much I feel it. I can use the biggest words with the deepest meaning and it still wouldn’t suffice, and I know you know I love you but do I really make it that clear on how much?
If I knew a way I’s show you every day that you have my heart and I only want to be with you, love doesn’t get any more real to me then the love I have in my heart right now for you. I have loved before as have you, but this love that has grown for you exceeds anything have ever felt, and I don’t want you anymore…I need you now. With you I feel complete, and I feel like no matter what happens in my life everything will always be alright because I have you. Your everything I’m not, and you balance me out, I can be myself with you because I know you will accept me for anything. We may have moved fast from the beginning but I didn’t take it as a risk, I knew that I’d love you and that I had nothing to worry about. We have our ups and downs of course but we let it go and get past it, like we said in the beginning we accept the good and bad in each other and no matter how difficult you may be sometimes all I can think is I love you enough try and be understanding with you.
Love, I know you had a hard and hurtful past, I can’t say I know what you been through or how you feel because I don’t. But we all go through things for a reason, we come into contact with people who are going to break us and push us to those limits, I wish I could do something to take your pain away I hate that you have to endure that alone. I can’t change what was but I can promise you right now that I will never hurt you, leave you, or make you feel like your nothing. Truth is your worth more than a miracle, you have a big heart that people have hurt and taken advantage of, and now it’s my job to protect it and not let anyone ever hurt you again. The past is just experiences and the future is us, so just live in the now with me babe and let it all go. I know easier said than done right? Well the doing has to start eventually, I hate seeing you hurt and I feel helpless that is nothing I can do to mend what’s broken inside. I care about you with everything I have, I would give up anything for you if that meant you were truly happy…why? Because you deserve that and so much more. I know you say you have a tendency to push everyone away sometimes, and I felt that momentarily and it was an ugly feeling like I couldn’t reach you no matter what I did. If you ever feel yourself drifting away don’t let it take hold of you, and just come back to me okay babe I’ll always be waiting for you because there is no other way. I don’t want you to go anywhere babe I really love you and I can’t imagine my life or my future if it’s not waking up and going to sleep with you every day.
“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart