Kellie Cantu

"If you're feeling the Holy Spirit within you, come join me in prayer. If you feel that Jesus is right beside you at this very moment, come join me in prayer…If you believe in the Lord, who gave his life for you, then you are truly saved." The main preacher for the Acquire the Fire conference spoke to me and the 500 people who worshiped the One to God: I had forgotten about my past, my troubles, and my old self. In that moment, I truly felt that I, for once, was spiritually saved by God. Throughout my childhood and early teenage years, I have been humiliated, bullied, lied to , and secluded by everyone around me, jocks, peers, older kids, popular kids. Everyday was a living nightmare. People would call me horrible names that were unimaginable; they would give me nicknames such as "Piggy," "Smelly Kellie," and the occasional "Loser." I would come home crying due to the harassment at school. My parents were concerned for my education, but more importantly, my safety was at stake. I was tired of to. I knew that whatever was going through my head was wrong, but ending my life was the only way to make it stop. As I held the blade, just inches away from cutting my wrist, I began thinking about the people I would leave behind . My parents, my sisters, my aunts and uncles, and even my friends, were the only ones who understood how I really felt each and everyday that i suffered at school. Even though I would lose my life due to the harassment, I forgot that the people who loved me would be devastated if I took my life. Nowadays, bullying is one of the primary causes for a child or teenager to commit suicide. I dropped the blade, and told my parents how I truly felt and what I was going to do to myself. Since then, the years have gone by so quickly. It feels like my freshman year was yesterday. I got to meet new people from different schools, and meet new teachers. Everything has changed, but some feelings have remained unchanged. New arguments and unexpected events have turned up in my life, and for some, I was never really proud of. I went back to when I almost took my life due to people who weren't nice to me. I knew that it still would be wrong to harm myself, but it