Cam,

I know I seldom tell you how beautiful you are and how much you truly mean to me. I also know that you really do love me and we both have a special place in each other’s hearts for one another. It’s taken me most of my life to figure out how to express my feelings and actions towards someone if it didn’t involve negativity or criticism of some sort. For some reason being an antagonist has always been a much easier route for me to deal with particular issues-even in instances when positivity should’ve been engaged. Growing up I was raised to always see the negative of a situation, no matter how perfect something looked or seemed. This was a behavior that was acquired at an early age in my adolescent years. I also had many “so-called” friends during high school and after graduation that inflicted detrimental actions towards me that made me turn colder and have a more negative perception of people. It’s unfortunate how it’s pretty much stayed with me since then. I’ve never really realized it until these last few months of our relationship. I guess it takes someone you care for so much to react in such a way that it makes you take a step back and look at yourself from a different perspective. I’m truly sorry if I seem to be a critic of your lifestyle or make you feel insecure of your appearance. You have to take my comments with a grain of salt sometimes Cam. I really do mean nothing by it or think that much into the matter at hand. This